“Check out my new background for my phone,” I told Dogman…he said “Oh yeah, that is the monument for John Lennon outside his townhome in New York, I have been there.”  I didn’t tell him that I did now know that, I just sat with the wonder on why I had chosen that background and what attracted me to that and now I am finding out what I was attracted to.

Two years ago, my daughters bought me for Christmas a wooden cutout of the word IMAGINE and it sits in a very prominent spot in my house.  That same Christmas Andy, Madison’s boyfriend, bought me a wooden peace symbol about the same size.  When I put them both up I had to laugh because sitting right next to each other they say IMAGINE PEACE. 

Since it seems that this universe works in threes, I also became acutely aware when I was reading one of my emails and I realize that I end my emails with “…. peace”.  So the energy of imagine and peace are really in the forefront for me right now.  So to fully indulge, I went and downloaded Imagine from Itunes and have been living with it for a few days.  What has been coming up for me is how I have a love hate relationship with being at peace.  I want peace in my life and I find myself still in some situations where I am not choosing peace.   I am realizing how much of a struggle I have with letting go of my heart of conflict and stepping into a heart of peace and love. 

I realize how much of our culture, our country and our world is set up around conflict.  As it was stated in The Hurt Locker, “war is our drug.”  Living in peace is the same as eating healthy…….it’s more time consuming, it’s more expensive, and it is more accepted.  There was even a scene at the end of The Day the Earth Stood Still where love and peace had come to our planet and the newspaper editor was asking his staff “What is going to happen to us now, what are we going to write about…….everybody is in love.” 

These last few years have been full of big life changes for me and today I am aware of my struggle and my intention to live with a heart of peace…. I am letting go of conflict a peace at a time……imagine that.